Archive | September 2013

Long Story Part 2

Met with Dr. S.

After a two hour consultation, he said:

“for you, it’s a matter of when, not if”.

I felt very relieved after what he said, not knowing what will become of me in the next few months.

Our next few months by the number:

June 2013: IUI #1

  • 2 million – number of sperms
  • 1 – number of follicle(s) I had with Letrozole
  • 0 – number of baby after 2 weeks

July 2013: IUI #2

  • 7.5 million – number of sperms
  • 3 – number of follicles I had
  • 0 – number of baby after 2 weeks

August 2013: IUI #3

  • 7.7 million – number of sperms
  • 3 – number of follicles I had
  • 0 – number of baby after 2 weeks

I was responding well to meds after we increased our dosage after the first cycle.  My husband’s numbers were looking good after the first cycle as well.  But the sticks I peed on were telling me you can go have a drink today.

So no, turns out it was not a matter of just when.

Long Story Part 1

It is a long story.  So I’ll break it down.

Beginning of last year is when we started trying.

Months pass, no baby in my tummy, I started doubting myself.  Was my calculation wrong?  Don’t need to be a math wiz to figure it out.  I have always been regular.

So the research began.  Is there a way to figure out when I’m ovulating and make sure I did ovulate.  Turns out, there is.  Cervical mucus and basal temperature.  Yuck you say?  That’s exactly what I said.  But the nature of fertility (of infertility in this case) calls for these terms you should only know if you were in med school, nursing school, or if you were just a plain perv.  Or so I thought.

Anyway, as a ex-engineer, I got into full gear of analyzing my female body.  And this was stressing me out.  I was constantly running to the bathroom to check my ‘CM’ during the day.  And since the book clearly states I should be taking my temperature as soon as I get up, when I had the tiniest bit of consciousness during the night, I would open my eyes and check the clock.  This threw off my sleeping cycle.  I was so worried about getting up at the same time everyday to temp, I was not sleeping deep enough.  Of course that throws off my temperature.

After a couple months of stressing, I finally relaxed about it, took temperatures when I can, checked my bodily fluids when I noticed them, didn’t try to pry it out of myself.

The result?

Nothing was wrong.  At least from the charting.  My temperatures were as they should be.  I was regular enough.  I seemed to be ovulating – chart & ovulation test kits were confirming it.  So.. what was wrong?  To be honest, and I will never say this to my husband ever, but I thought it could be him.

To be continued…

My Story

It’s a long but short story.

I am 32 years.

I got married 2 years and 5 months ago.

It’s been 1 year and 9 months since my husband and I have been actively trying to conceive.

The only baby I have is my precious fur baby who we adopted two years ago from the shelter.

So like I said, it’s a short story.

The longer story to come soon.