IVF1.0 Update #12 – Beta
The wait for that beta number call was brutal. I went in early Thursday morning hoping to get the results earlier in the afternoon but that email my coordinator promised was still not here by 4pm. At around 4:30pm, the phone rang.
It was Dr. Nice. He said ‘Congratulations!’ and then I heard lots of wooing and waahs in the background. It was all the nurses and the coordinators. I guess this was why my coordinator was disappointed when I told her I already cheated and tested. They wanted to surprise me.
But still, I was happy to get that call. It was another confirmation. He said the numbers look great at 768. And then proceeded to say ‘there may be more than one in there’ judging by the numbers although we won’t know for sure until the ultrasound. Yea, I was afraid of that. On 12dp3dt, the wondfo strip’s 2nd pink line was very dark. It was as dark as the base 1st line. I knew that would mean high HCG in my system, and that could mean there’s two in there.
My first ultrasound will be in 11 days, on 3/7. It can’t come any sooner. To find out if it really is one or two. I’ll of course be happy with either although I am a little worried about having twins. I am a rather petite person. So I’m worried the babies might not be able to grow to full term and might be born premature. It was one of the concerns another RE had when I was consulting with him for IVF. But we will get to that when we confirm and I’ll look for the right OB. I will probably go back to Dr. R who oversaw my last IUI. He is a high risk pregnancy specialist so I’ll be in good hands.
As far as symptoms go, I’m still bloated, cramps here and there and headaches. Bloating is due to IVF and Dr. Nice told me to keep drinking lots of fluids. It’s mostly subsided but feel it the most after a meal. Cramping is still come and go. I asked the Dr. and he said my uterus is making room so it’s common. The cramping is helping me keep calm. It means they’re still there. It means I might be able to see the heartbeat.. or two.
Another weird symptom I ‘m having is a sudden headache in the shower. When that hot water hits my head and face, I get a headache. It goes away as soon as I step out of the shower. I take very hot showers and it used to be the favorite time of day for me. I would just stand under that hot steaming water for minutes just to keep warm. But now that headache is preventing my me-time. Not sure if it’s related to the pregnancy but thought I’d mention it since it started after I POAS.
No nausea yet and I hope it stays that way though I doubt it. My mom had really bad morning sickness and reminded me constantly how much of a pain I was when she had me.
While I am so very happy about my BFP, there were some sad news on the blogsphere and on twitter last few days. There were a few ladies whose retrieval or transfers were within a week of each other and while some are celebrating, some have to start a new cycle. I was so heartbroken to hear their news and it was hard to celebrate my own success as I felt some guilt for moving on. Although one positive beta is no where near moving on from infertility, I couldn’t help feel some weird sense of guilt. But I know all of us would rather feel this guilt than to start a new cycle over and over again. I’ll be praying constantly for all of us. For the ones able to move on, to find the right path and be on it. For the other ones to be able to get peace. But one thing for sure even though one might succeed with IUI or IVF, we will all be a infertile. Forever.