Pregnancy Depression
For most of the symptoms list here on this article related to pregnancy depression, I fit most of the profile. I realized today that it may not be just the hormones. And the realization that it may be because of what I went through with infertility oddly made things feel a little better. And after speaking to a doctor today after my first OB appointment, I feel like I might be on the path to recovery. Realization is the first step, right?
Late Night Freakout
Nothing had changed much since the last ultrasound. I was getting more crankier (yes, I know, I agree DH) with the headaches, nausea, fatigue and recently, drop in appetite. I feel better after eating a meal but finding something that I feel like I can eat is challenging. And even if I wanted to eat it, getting that food into my mouth is an additional hurdle.
And then there was two…
Warning: Ultrasound pictures below. I *totally* understand seeing ultrasound pictures can be hard on some of us going through this journey called infertility. Please skip if your heart doesn’t allow it.
Finally. The day of the ultrasound. Got there on time, sat down and then DH asks ‘does your bladder need to be full’? I looked it up online quickly and yes. It’s better to have a full bladder. So I start chugging. We were led to the back room quite after our original appointment time. I get that I’m not priority and I’m completely okay with it.
IVF1.0 Update #12 – Beta
The wait for that beta number call was brutal. I went in early Thursday morning hoping to get the results earlier in the afternoon but that email my coordinator promised was still not here by 4pm. At around 4:30pm, the phone rang.
IVF1.0 Update #10 – Transfer
The title says it. Our transfer is complete. I was dreading it. I was hoping they would call this morning to tell us that the embryos are growing well and that we’d push it to day 5. But no call. I was afraid that day 3 transfer meant the doctor thought our embryos won’t make it til day 5 – they are less likely to implant and become a positive pregnancy. I was also dreading it because transferring now (or day 5) means now it’s all up to me. I can’t blame the embryos or the lab for not growing it well. It won’t be the doctor’s fault. It would be me. It would be my body. If this is negative, it’s not just my tubes but it’s that my uterus won’t accept it.
IVF1.0 Update #9 – Egg Retrieval and Fertilization Report
We are done with egg retrieval and I got a call from my doctor a couple hours ago with the fertilization report! We have 10 embryos!!! He had told us right after the retrieval that he got 18 eggs but that he believes only 12 are mature. I was telling DH about the whole process since he doesn’t know as much as I do, that 10 embryos would be an amazing number. And I was exactly right!!
IVF1.0 Update #8 – ER Date Set
Egg retrieval date is set for Wednesday! Dum-dum-dum!
Third ultrasound and fourth blood draw of IVF 1.0 was today. E2 is now at 4078, another slightly less than double from Saturday morning’s 2718. Even with the lowered FSH dosage, it went up quite a bit.
My overachieving left ovary is still continuing its A++ path. There were definitely a few large ones, a couple in the 22-24mm range. I haven’t seen anything that big during any of my IUIs since we triggered when at least one hit the 16-18mm mark. I didn’t know the follicles can even get that big! It explains the extreme bloating I had last night. I was so uncomfortable yesterday, I had to say no to our planned BD session.
IVF1.0 Update #7 – Second Ultrasound + ER Date
I met with Dr. Nice today for the ultrasound and another blood test. He recorded all the follicles and showed me a list at the end. I don’t have the screen shot so this is from memory:
- Right Ovary:6 follicles. A few 8-10 mm and I think there was one 15mm.
- My overachieving left ovary: 8 follicles. Biggest one was 18mm, most were around 15-16mm and a couple 12mm.
- Lining: 14mm (I think!)
IVF1.0 Update #6 – first ultrasound & side effects
On day 7 of stims, I was finally able to see my follicles. I started having cramps on my left ovary starting yesterday so I knew the left side would be outperforming the right in quantity and size. I was right. There were about 3-4 follicles on the right, 10 or 11mm in size. Left had a lot more: 7-8 follicles and the largest was 13mm. Yay for my overachieving left ovary!!
Some symptoms as of a couple days:
hope love & family 